travels

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fuck man. what a truly tumultuous last few weeks it's been, all relative of course. in terms of my own life though, holey moley.

traveling through space and time. days spent in the beautiful city of san francisco. family. our own "tri-city" and high school friends, gold. sf nightlife and new friends. late nights, tears, too much alcohol. creeps. g'd up spop fam forever - an unobstucted view of the san francisco skyline.

back to the town that makes no sound, this place ain't so bad. finding the beauty in unexpected places. chillin, keeping it easy. peace of mind. focusing.

the city of sin. they say expect the unexpected, but i'm not a good listener. he's from london, older. me? young, same story. chillin on cloud 9, woah.

the moral of the weekend past is to stop being so fuckin impatient. impatience is trouble. causes TURMOIL. especially in the case of narcotics. i have never felt so fucking low in my life. never felt so alone before. looking for everything in all the wrong places. eh, gotta get your mind right first, gotta believe in oneself. gotta love yourself before expecting others to be able to. for sure. this is a whack ass paragraph, i'm just glad i'm over this bullshit.

now i'm just thankful for the friends that have carried me through my self induced bullshit weekend. funny cause at the time i was thinking wow, no one cares, no one gets me, am i really equipped with the necessary means to get through this life of mine? i was so fucked. having said what i said about loving yourself first.. sometimes you just can't; in which case, you really have to believe in others when you really just can't believe in yourself. gosh darn it. listen to your friends. truest lesson learned right there.

i was very afraid that i had let you back in my life before i was ready. turned out to be a blessing in disguise for me. i am so thankful to a part of your life right now.

i've shaken my head so much this past weekend, but as fucking shitty as it's been, xlessonlearnedx. this life is crazy, this world is crazy, people are crazy, we're all searching for some sort of meaning.. the very least we can do is to look out for one another. peace & love, don't forget to smile.

forget regret, i'm in transit - choo choo