sun day is my favorite day of the week

three sundays this weekend. more opportunity and more time passed.
whether you look at it as half empty or half full, it still is water in a glass.
am i doing things to positively benefit this individual
or creating a personal battles within my own being, fighting uphill.

losing touch with things that matter in life. hanging out with a different crew these days, down ass bitches. peronal struggles with people and situations i don't know how to handle. on my mind all day every day. lost touch with my school work, lost touch with my school activities, my passion in.. i don't even know how to label it, but sustainability.

i've been sustaining many other things in life. some things. been cooking a lot. throughly cleaned my room all today while chillin the speezy with the rooms. loved dogs, took pixie for a walk around our cookie cutter northwood neighborhood. met some dude named carter who took off running in his dress slacks, button up longsleeve and running shoes. borrowed a pomegranate off of a baby shrub and enjoyed it with rooms. mad/happy driving back and forth down culver alongside my favorite father.

surprises.
i like to vaguely talk about things in my life i am ashamed of, and randomly list off things that i enjoy so that i can think about the positive vs stuff i;m not so sure about. my life. my life. my life. it's not headed in any direction right now.

waiting denying surprising waiting.